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I always used to think I knew what I was capable of, what kinds of things I could accomplish, and for the most part, that I'd always get what I wanted. Not to sound like a selfish brat or anything, but I always believed in the whole if you set your mind to it, you can make it happen type of thing. Lately, I've been feeling so doubtful. I know these feelings are here to scare me and are nothing more, but it's a scary thought-- not knowing what comes next in life, but of course that's what makes life so interesting.

Sometimes it's fun to think about the decisions you make and how they've really changed your path. I mean, you can never really play out two scenarios, so it seems that which ever one you've chosen is the "right" one for you. Does that make sense? Well I guess it's something like, don't you ever wonder what could have been different? Of course. But then it's like, what's the point of wondering because you can't ever know and it won't make a difference. But I don't know about that-- does it make a difference? Like right now I'm thinking, what if I don't make it through school? I mean, I'm certain I will, but there's that little ounce of doubt in me that makes me wonder. Or what if I think back further and say, what if I still went to school in San Diego?

How do you know if you've made the right decision? And then, if you've made the wrong one, you always have another chance, right? But wait, what if there comes a time when there are no more chances? (Ok, this is NOT about school because I love my school, but I'm just pondering about life in general; I used school as an example, don't get me wrong.) So, then that means that there will be situations where you just take things as they are and make the best out of them? OR do you seek out better solutions? I don't know.

Ok, let's say you have a really nice sweater, and let's say it has some sentimental value. Well, you've discovered that there's a huge hole in it. Do you go to the Gap and buy another one to replace it? Haha, whatever. I must be crazy. What am I saying?! Bottom line: if you had the chance to rewind, or fast forward, would you take that chance?