UP!

Wowwieee the last two blog entries were too depressing for life. Thank goodness that anxiety attack/panic phase is now over. Whew! School really does get the best of you.

Finally getting started on the right foot. All systems go :)

unresolved.

So many things to do. I'm losing sleep just thinking about it...

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I always used to think I knew what I was capable of, what kinds of things I could accomplish, and for the most part, that I'd always get what I wanted. Not to sound like a selfish brat or anything, but I always believed in the whole if you set your mind to it, you can make it happen type of thing. Lately, I've been feeling so doubtful. I know these feelings are here to scare me and are nothing more, but it's a scary thought-- not knowing what comes next in life, but of course that's what makes life so interesting.

Sometimes it's fun to think about the decisions you make and how they've really changed your path. I mean, you can never really play out two scenarios, so it seems that which ever one you've chosen is the "right" one for you. Does that make sense? Well I guess it's something like, don't you ever wonder what could have been different? Of course. But then it's like, what's the point of wondering because you can't ever know and it won't make a difference. But I don't know about that-- does it make a difference? Like right now I'm thinking, what if I don't make it through school? I mean, I'm certain I will, but there's that little ounce of doubt in me that makes me wonder. Or what if I think back further and say, what if I still went to school in San Diego?

How do you know if you've made the right decision? And then, if you've made the wrong one, you always have another chance, right? But wait, what if there comes a time when there are no more chances? (Ok, this is NOT about school because I love my school, but I'm just pondering about life in general; I used school as an example, don't get me wrong.) So, then that means that there will be situations where you just take things as they are and make the best out of them? OR do you seek out better solutions? I don't know.

Ok, let's say you have a really nice sweater, and let's say it has some sentimental value. Well, you've discovered that there's a huge hole in it. Do you go to the Gap and buy another one to replace it? Haha, whatever. I must be crazy. What am I saying?! Bottom line: if you had the chance to rewind, or fast forward, would you take that chance?

I give up on summer.

I am in a terrible mood and I don't know why so this is me trying to figure out why I'm in such a foul mood.

Number 1: It's summer and everyone is back home from school, but I'm still in school. Not only am I still in school, but I'm in my last four weeks of school which means I should go hide in a cave with my Macbook and stock up on Rockstars. Actually, I can't because caffeine gives me heart palpitations and I don't play with fire. So I want to play with my friends but Art Center has made my summer a living hell. A hot living hell-- it was 101 degrees today. Dang man. Oh yeah, wanted to go to bonfire but scholarship portfolio said no.

Number 2: Tissues for my issues. I don't think there is another reason besides the fact that I don't want to be in school right now and I just want to enjoy summer like all the other cool kids are doing. So I listed a number 2 reason for nothing. I want to go out and eat and play and go to the beach and stay up late for the hell of it, not because I have 213438 projects to finish. I'm sick of staying indoors, glued to my computer. I swear this laptop is burning a hole in my ovaries. Gross, right?

So I'm excited for the next four weeks to be over. I don't think the four weeks will be fun, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know if I've solved anything. I'm still in a pretty crummy mood. Stressed out to the max. I need a break. Pronto.

heavy eyelids

I'm sleepy all the time. I eat at weird hours of the day and I have food comas all the time. I have work to do but I'm so sleepy I really think I'm just going to sleep and wake up early as usual. Sleep is such a beautiful thing. I've come to appreciate it so much. But the thing is I just ate about 2 hours ago and I don't think it's good to sleep right now but honestly my body is shutting down. And my body is cramping up too. I need to exercise. Hardcore. I can feel lipids turning into fat and storing themselves all over the place. Yuck. Two more weeks, and I'll be free from this sleep deprivation. Then we can start all over and I'll plan my life out better. Tired body aches...

I just wrote about sleep. haha.

My body hurts.

So I come home from school and decide to take a nap to get rid of my nasty headache. I wake up feeling refreshed, energized and ready to do homework. Then I go to the back house to check on the dogs my cousin is dog-sitting. One of them slips out the door from under my legs and starts running away. So of course, I chase it. Terrible idea. The dog only runs faster. Finally I get it by the collar and by this point it's barking and hissing at me (can dogs hiss?). I'm scared for my life because I almost lost somebody else's dog and what if it bit me... then I'd be on the evening news for a dog mauling. Anyways, I'm holding onto the collar and you know in movies when the dog drags it's owner because it's running like a race horse? Pretty much what happened, but not that crazy. It just took off and I couldn't run as fast but I wasn't going to let go. So now my cheek is swollen, I have scrapes on my arms and legs, and my head is pounding more than it did before my nap.

Script Lettering

Graphite hand drawing, no tracing.

Fruits!

Look at what I found in my backyard-- and that's just one of the banana trees! Unfortunately, it's not pomegranate season so there were only a couple pomegranates that have been picked open by birds. But still so pretty!

Sunday's not-so-best

So today I threw on a t-shirt, faded black sweats, threw my hair in a ponytail and headed out to school to get some stuff done. Sunday is the only day I allow myself to arrive on campus looking like a complete bum because no one's at school, no one to impress. (Art Center is pretty fashion-saavy, dang artists). I was trying to pull a celebrity-in-sweats-nobody-notice-me kind of look. Well lucky for me, I ran into two people I knew who both ended up talking to me for quite some time! What are the odds of that... there were only like 10 cars in the parking lot too. Then the stupid fire alarm goes off for what seemed like forever. I looked around and nobody gets up to evacuate. Everyone continues working on stuff but my ears are starting to bleed at this point and I need to leave before I lose my hearing. So basically I exposed my inner ugly for no reason.

Animal

This is a part of a project I did in my typography class. Still in it's first stage. No tracing, hand-rendered drawing.

Ta-da!

Here is my highly-anticipated blog (yeah right). Welcome, welcome. I'm thinking I'll be posting a ton of randomness... cool stuff I find, some of my work, thoughts that are just spewing from my brain. But for right now, I should be working on a paper. Whoopee!